So It Continues

I came back from two months of bliss, kindness, caring, love, and happiness.  Then you wait to see.....will it last or are the bad things that tormented me here going to take control again? Glad to say they haven't despite some of them trying.  But I hang on and I fight and so things stay good.....they stay great.  Part of it is the people you let in. And that luck....that luck keeps on coming.

She says to me, "I was always jealous of you for that....can we go?" and she makes my life once again. So we plan it and it is done.  I get what I was going to miss so bad this year anyway.  The amazing thing is I KNOW I will have a better time than I would have the old way.  I know........

Then two tickets come into my life that make my birthday.  They take me back to California for a few days.....letting me see probably my favorite person musically ever who writes his songs for me even if he doesn't know it.  They take me back to that carefree summer with my friends who love me.  I look forward to it so much.  Who knows what adventures await there.  Hard to top last time but who knows.

Laughter.......my therapist (who I'm not sure at all I need to be seeing anymore but I still go because she is like a best friend now) and I laughed so hard this week at something that happened that we had Ryan dying laughing at us.  We acted like silly crazies and it was so funny until I pulled my leg muscle again running away from Ryan.  I need those guys to be my friends.

My favorite obsession is over for 10 months but this week was over the top.  Such emotion in one scene and such shock in another.  Don't know how I'll live without it for 10 months.

So......things stay great.  And with me always stays my future.....the peace of this that waits for me, beckons me, and promises happiness forever.  Less than a year until it is mine 24/7, always, forever, never to be just a place I go but my home.  It just doesn't get better than that.