I really thought I'd never get to the place where I moved on to a better place ever. It just seemed to get worse and worse. As painful as it can be, moving in the right direction, even if it is very hard is the thing to do. January wasn't good. Then I faced a lot of things I'd shoved deep down inside.....some of them for the first time ever. I also made a change or am in the process of making it. It is a big one too. Immediately I felt better. I saw that light at the end of the tunnel....finally. I didn't think it was there. I really didn't. I don't know how I could have felt worse since December of 2015. I really don't.
Now, this change and facing up to some things have made the biggest difference ever. Yet, one thing continues. The weeding out of the bad situations and people not for me. Sometimes it hurts because it is people you always thought would be there. You never once considered they'd lie or make excuses for their actions or stop being there for you when they knew you were struggling. But people are selfish. It is a weird thing considering how much I've done for them lately or all together but whatever. I'm going to survive no matter what and I'm still celebrating the two good things happening right now. I am. No one can take that from me. I choose happy.
